dreams
i was on the train
and this weirdo hacked me knowing things
he thought i was alone and had no support
some woman too
they called the police but not for me, against me because i slapped that hacker woman really really hard
they never came
i had my other phone still though, as in i had my iphone n the google phone

i was at sumex and bmpi dki worked there too
jonas talked to leah and tried to help me in the typical dog language
i still see the pic of them
leah sat down
and jonas right of her talking to her

i also was at this weird place sumex or so
they said at this place anything is possible
also saw myself with black full head of hair
swi was there too

i once had a vision of me working at sumex
but in a meeting room for one
healing ppl
so basically a front for me playing doc

notice how in no dream ever do i have kids wife house family friends?
its always war
sex yes, erections every night multiple times
no trauma at all
what did la serra do? ah yes give me another one via FU
the guy with many children? dschingis khan

someone said the signals i get are a joke and part of this game?
but someone else implied theyre not just important they are of essence

one where i forced all biohackers out of their bunkers

sex dream again with i dont know who that was

patterned transparent pulsating sunflower
i wa in this room a layer down and saw me so im starting to see that better too
i sort of left my body again
felt energy consciously all the time
energy in eyes fully activated, entire eyes were pulsating electrified golden

was in an entirely different reality again
for what felt years even

once saw myself destroy all of mafia
found their boss
and their comm structure / network

saw myself walking through the wall here surprising the criminals with my face sticking out of the wall

saw myself reaching out and interacting with my surroundings again
chose a song on spotify
clicked around
also saw myself in this apartment and it had an insane amount of flies
sometimes feels like different timelines and times yes
also always or many times seem to feel this faint simmer in or near my body, it feels holy divine peaceful loving healing, as if im glowing pure white
also saw myself protecting xenias family especially leno with angel sounds, divine light, marking my presence, even saw an angel say hello to leno on his way to school or whatever
saw lots of puffy white language again
i close my eyes its immediately present
and when i close my eyes most often now i see glowing white amberish but it is white peaceful
it really seems peaceful
even the light air and energy in this apartment seems divine
even now
i seem to watch from outside
its peaceful
soft
amber white glowing simmer
and i had this sort of vision of me sort of not leaving my body but becoming a pure white glowing being, not a ghost, thats different, i saw myself leaving my body as an amorph white glowing divine sort of being, ancient ascended came to mind
i also came to the realization that i do not understand humans because i simply am not human

alternate reality where i worked with gabriel
ordered crowdcontainer there too
worked on some construction site

i had a dream once i gave the police an address but not as simple as that
spread
over many heads
only visible during certain conditions and not sun light but moon light
and then it fades away never to be seem again

i also had a dream once sitting i think with martina? somewhere on a couch and i had a mini giraffe, very cute

there is a show where they live inside a dome and cant get out
us
in the zurich zoo there is this jungle
inside a dome sort of
us
i once had a dream of it and how i got out of it
i broke out of it
also saw things near the top
flew around

i once had a dream
of talking to a hacker
and we found an easy exploit affecting ALL ROUTERS
and it was a simple switch

those discussions with other hackers were real too apparently

saw myself editing notes and searching again

i scream yell and argue a lot in dream

saw myself opening the door here, lost keys, it was all foggy

saw myself on toilet
dick quite a lot bigger

also saw me with charlotte on the beach
her half naked
me thinking of fucking her
no idea why she once left
she said shes looking for a toilet
prostitution?
in the end all women were either whores or very old women with kids already
everyone thinking theyre doing me a favor and having pity
it is very funny in hindsight
even this hacker here is very entertaining
him thinking hes my boss
and just blocking albums lol
and sort of TRYING to force me to listen to certain music
and use headphones
why headphones
this apartment must be the best one ive ever had
the acoustics in here are great
i didnt expect to find a partner or have sex in here
i gave up on that a long time ago
the music sounds WAY better without headphones
leave me the fuck alone already everyone
in my 20s i enjoyed my alone time too
im no leader
i dont want followers
i dont want to make "important decisions"
u a ldr whether u want it or not says cgpt
ofc not
hes trying to brainwash me lol
he tried a few times
i still like them because they changed my life forever
ofc you can choose to be a ldr
there is always a choice said bazz once
god damn that guy was the best guy in my life
he shaped my childhood
he had more influence on me than anyone
than my parents and sister
than eqx
he made a short simple song and said its not done yet and sent it to me
it sounded better than any other song ive ever heard
he even found it funny
no lol its just a short aspect of it
but it was very simple
yes on purpose i guess
no idea why
brainhack me, prime me
seemed honest though
very very nice song
shouldve kept it
very sad hes gone now

saw with my eyes through the wall here and saw the packages and weirdos doing their thing

felt like i found the name of one of the weirdos on their boat, the off world group
wanted to doxx them but they begged me not to
