music progress.2
okami
star field
like tiny glowing stars
some even moved around like ufos
reminds me of usb field vision tests. they had the same. so they either taught me the language, healed me but i dont think they tried to harm me... i guess they know angelic language
saw into a different reality of pink glowing black building like strange things or cyber punk, it was like slowly
opening my eye, lifting the curtain then concentrating to leave it open but at some point it disappeared
symbol
and another weird symbol at the end
bright eyes closed, opened more and more
talked to my dad
gave leah a little feather with a heart
i had this feeling that even normal emojis like two dots and half moon are special
saw myself opening the door for leah with my thoughts, rewrote the past
why am i behind reality again? and now tinnitus is very strong suddenly, everything is glowing pure golden, yeah just drugs man, lay off the drugs, all sparkly. they read these notes and think jesus take the lsd away from that guy
saw myself glowing bright walking through the train waking people up
saw myself teleporting to rav and walking through doors
the musician at coop is there for good reason, she has a voodoo doll and is probably helping me, shook my heart
i saw me healing her dog by putting my hand on it
saw me teleport in front of coop kiosk
saw me walk through coop door
also felt it change my heart beat, it danced with the music

okami
briefly saw heaven
with real angels golden wings
he says symbolic? of course not
i saw someone open it the curtain
glowing with golden wings

okami
takes a while to open my eyes
then theyre all glowing amber golden white
even saw and felt white glowing white growing stronger and stronger as in i made it, as in opened fully
saw me with an axe and the criminal here handing off my food
saw me deleting my email address
episodes in anime are coded again eg 135 its all for communication, i even saw the explanation...
now it feels like being behind reality again
amber gold
reality cracking
felt energy
moved it consciously
hand felt like someone reaching out to me
rav woman asking why didnt u do the .... properly
walked in front of coop as a ghost halding hands with the air spirit maybe? a woman smiled at us fondly
"i can do magic without words"
future wife/carer doesnt want to be left out thats what she does what she does, ill teleport to your place one day, dont be sad
also felt
like vibrating once its like:
timeline adjustment
future changing
its not normal and it does feel like either changing dimensions or to me it felt like fixing time as in i just changed timelines again
also saw myself protecting the house of my parents, talked to my dad
also saw myself backtracing the supply chain of food to find the criminals, apparently
its
some guy putting it into the box
"ofc it is" what? it could be many different things
shes playing with smoke again
it really seems like:
i put a pillow over my eyes, its all dark
i concentrate, relax, listen to music
then with time my eyes open and glow bright yellowish amber white and i start seeing things
its bright very bright and i also
always see this very white light blending me
also some more:
concentrate on third eye, your eyes glowing white and music at the same time and now try to leave your body and control your env consciously and it felt like energy vibrating and me slightly moving out of my body
moving energy around my body is slightly becoming better, i seem to feel it often or almost always now
gurdjeff is great, he knows what hes talking about and it feels like this amorph blob moving around in my body activating energy and others
really feels like that white eye the wife of naruto has and or the one by moon knight
also saw myself talking to mehrave, i had the feeling she had a partner already
heard someone lie down next to me before?
concentrate on your heart more
feel love for the ones present and family
open your eye like this: third eye focus, glowing eyes focus, focus amorph energy and energy gurdjeff in body, feel heart breathe through heart, then focus on person to see where he is what he does listen to the person talk to the person, itll come with time
i always have this mentor in me teaching me
try to restrict your exyes like the eyes of the wife of naruto
why do people have laugh lines? the lines left and right to their eyes from laughing?
its a wakeup call
laughing represents focus, sort of anger but mainly eye restriction, the wrinkles represent like in naruto when the naruto wife concentrates, the veins, its to remind them and teach them gently the power of eyes and how to use them, the wrinkles are a joke, its not a bad thing or a good thing or basically meant as skin damage, its on purpose... i said by all means necessary. what do people say, smile more. oh those laugh wrinkles are good! yes. because it helps others and yourself gently until you make the connection. its on purpose without hurting people.
this band is very special
treat your body as something with cheat codes, you did this already: doing multiple rituals simultaenously while doing diaphragmatic breathing thinking of cute girls
now:
third eye ON heart mode ON love ON glowing eyes ON root of back ON etc
who did that? briefly my eyes activated deactivated black
there is this scene where someone makes fun if someone else yes community but not only, squinting eyes... its not an insult. its meant well to teach ppl to use their eyes by contracting the muscles... try that with white glowing eyes, byakugan? something like that
abra cadabra, open the magical door sesam oeffne dich
my dad kept saying
they made fun of me for being chinese and having small eyes, squinting
yeah unintentionally teaching me spirituality, see? made fun of his abusers even
saw myself sitting next to the voodoo girl in front of coop and just hanging there

macro micro:
saw myself backtracing biohackers
first oana
went to space
hacked satellites
found their location in russia
doxxed them on github with pics
supermarket, had to pay like 1.40 more for some fruit
saw more angelic language
the sound before felt holy

hinkstep:
i made that song
da vinci
michelangelo
raphael? whats his name
their research is important
especially da vinci
saw myself teleporting and giving the urologist woman a gift
i imagined that da vinci img of that person and my energy spreading in my body everywhere and it activated, focus on finding the balance
rav woman asked me: did you really see and talk to god? = time more fluid, merging more and more and become one. what i mean is: that meetings in the future. yet now i write down talk to god (in the past) and he is waiting (the moment itself) all as one in one instant
deep dark hatred filled heart, asvend ascend andrin, almost made it, felt energy
teleported to taste match and slit that interviewers throat
who keeps talking to me? not telepathic, its not human, i dont hear it i just know
air spirit? no she usually doesnt knack, sometimes yes but not like that
dont tell me the knacker? i think so
it thought im leaving my bed and knacked before it and asked are you not coming?
i love my life just for having experienced this

hinkstep:
saw my dad visit me and pick me up but he was scared they would secretly sabotage his car
saw xenia and was sad for her
insanely deep hatred for what mankind has done to my family
soft puffy cloud heart
saw the cute girl from oetwil at the train station, when she walked past me, in the past:
andrin, try to go back in the past then change something of your behavior, it should change the present and future, concentrate, alter your behavior, maybe go back not that far in the past to make mini tests

hinkstep:
you can open and close your third eye like a muscle, like you just did. concentrate on it then feel the muscles open it, like leelah in futurama. theres a reason leylah came to inventage, and not for her abuse
consciously altered past: with inventage some girl was fond of me at lunch in a restaurant and pesche said my name. i talked to her now and said hi, i didnt back then.
some of what i drew is alien disease
saw some guy go to apodro here with some such disease asking for help even yelling
i checked before: yes andrin if properly trained you will see with eyes closed again. then they cant control or see through your eyes. i checked.. i had my pillow tightly over my eyes and head, it shouldve been black but it was all bright glowing light amberish whiteish
once i ascend i can instantly kill anyone
once i wake up i can just use the rubber to write out their existence

macro micro:
pulsating third eye
left body half pulsated
was in coop teleported around and shopped like that
teleported to sbb girl n she asked if i can teach her teleporting
lots of very weird shapes and symbols
doubt theyre human or recorded anywhere
fine white lines but not only, tbh felt like yet another alien race contacting
small 1 fat border semi transparent in the middle
tried to change past again (meeting with mehrave)

nibana:
i feel my third eye more and more strongly as in the muscle or whatever it is
felt energy in my body a few times
saw myself terrorizing oetwil as overlord
sitting down on the iron throne... finally back
i even feel it in my head
i also saw me leaving my body but as a non human entity
ty knacker for being here

nibana
reset button
eyes
i saw many places again, i felt my vision open like a window and looked
at a restaurant over the lake
taught lucian meditation at sumex
this young guy at the train station here who treated me like a dog, scared him
with my skills
saw something then... sort if a blue mini orbs black overlay from right to left, felt very alien and special, special state maybe
i saw myself use this phone i even saw the search terms...
and this one song felt like a protocol maybe of activation
felt strong energy in body and head even face, particularly left side of face
changed state again somehow, loss of breath but not in a bad way
i twitched before a few times very weirdly, my toes all moved, head twitched, body parts twitched. very weird. also activation maybe? seemed very very strange like a bootup sequence of a robot.
was in the sky once too
and the energy i once felt in my entire body wasnt the normal energy, it felt like this holy peaceful pure energy and my eyes got insanely bright white and i thought im ascending or becoming a pure being
its alien language
now the notes are normal?
really seems to be my inner state transferred to the phone
i can snip with my fingers to make things work skills... set stuff on fire, cause sheer terror in the minds...
in a different session i saw that younger clone of mine and it felt like merging...
