xxx
so just chill
relax
eat some ice cream
drink some weird tea
ascend
my lifes over anyway

ascend for my family
now its my turn

"our" turn
awareness watching
army is getting built

dont you see?
they try to help
yet it comes across as abuse
yet they DO actually help
but in a layer they dont even know exists
patience patience yes
but not the way he thought


urgent?
yes so that my parents get revenge
and peace
for me? no



why should i now care?
act "importante"?
like im some sort of leader?
while the others just watch tv all day getting
fucked? hahahahhahahahahahaha
what is nik doing right now? not heartmath thats what, yes because he cant hear the angels

you seriously cant? apparently not
why would i have those other phenomena?

i seriously dont care about anything anymore

get a job? id get fired again anyway for arbitrary reasons
go to some stupid event? theyd all ignore me anyway while fucking the girls
dating? hahahahahahahahahaha
gym? so i can listen to this xxx music?
run? so that girls can change street sides and say ty abusingly? or say eeeww again?
study for a msc at 36 hahahahahhahaha
kids! baby! ah yes of course

seriously nothing matters anymore

oh now unia pays on time
what do i care man
why am i even on rav
ah right
i was kind again

i havent left the apartment for i dont know how long now
who cared? nobody
who cared in my 20s? nobody
this will never change

look at any xxx ever again?
i said what i wanted
a few months have passed
nothing changed
"you can have all you want"
LOL
look someone still does it hahahahhaha

i never wanted to be in the spotlight
or be in groups
im fine with sozialamt for the rest of my life
care for my parents
maybe see xenia and her family from time to time

look i checked bumble today
0 matches
it has always been like this
seriously nothing changed or helped my chances with any woman ever
LOL

there is always an excuse
oh suddenly its
well we cant do anything right now, have to let the fire burn out
"work for it"
oh we werent ready
oh just wait until next year
oh just get a job, surely youll find someone then
"patience patience"
with me its always patience and wait and stay reproductively useful and gym and run and healthy food and help and learn and study hahahhaahhahhahahahhahahahhahahahahahahahahhahhahahahahahaahhhahahh
it is insanely absurd and funny

what else do you want me to do?
i just do what i think is fun now
what i always did tbh
i tried to study and get a lead position a few times now
see adesso
"architect? hah no way"
then tobias comes with his 4 yoe and gets architect immediately
ooh now suddenly
adesso
yes want to be architect? right....
asked at inventage
ignored
sumex too
sumex and leah seriously destroyed my entire life
date any woman ever again? no way
no way in hell
women? right
kids? right
house? right
friends? right
job? right
what am i doing all day now?
i liked learning in my 20s for myself
i tried dating
i tried finding attractive girls to have sex with even more than one
i wanted kids
i studied many years so i could earn money
i tried buying a house in SH, i had the money
i wanted that house in portugal with oana
and look where i am now? sub 1k one room
apartments LOL
i had the money
it all failed
the world didnt want me
in my 20s i gave up and did what i wanted:
i played bf2 all day
i liked going to the gym and running
i liked eating healthy because it makes you feel good
i liked skincare
i liked reading books
i liked tv shows
i liked staying inside by myself
i never liked talking
i never wanted to be a leader
million followers? no ty
public speaking? no, i just dont like the attention
i will never understand this leah woman
they wanted me to spend time with her
they tested me if i liked her
sven let me sit with her at lunch
even if its an act its psycho
even if i woke up, it continued after waking up
she wanted to come with rsb and me to lunch and rsb was surprised
she sat there during lunch so wed be alone together
she didnt even look at me and onky asked questions shyly
not normal
they said she has no partner and told me where she is and to go love her already
look at that copper cup
its not a gift for a mafia made man
even that is a charade
ofc my family is xxx crazy
and i am proud to be a member of the xxx club
as in
you are now a full grown member of the ancient meier clan
ofc its true
my family is very ancient and powerful
instantly energy
and immediately energy
i never wanted to be in the spotlight
i travelled a few times
but its really not a fun experience alone
so at some point i gave that up too
so what?
i found that idea for painting great
why not do it?
why talk to any woman ever again?
they all xxx me
i had no success ever
why apply to any job ever again?
rav knows im not at fault
now i get thrown out here for standing up for myself
they all said play
they do the same stuff all day long
there were no cameras around
nobody was present
see? even again by game rules i get punished
that chico model is one great guy
look at the vids with his family
theyre all very happy
maybe a bit arrogant
but you can see theyre happy with him
i land on sozialamt due to TARGETED abuse
oleg shouldve hired me
avendo SAID they would hire me!!!!
taste match too!!!!!
PUPIL sent NINO TO ABUSE ME
they PROBABLY KNEW IM ON RAV
why would i care?
true sovereignty
you want true sovereignty?
here:
fuck everyone
i want my parents to have a good life
my sister and her family too
if xenia allows and wants this
i will be there for leno, vince and xenia decide, they are the parents
if my parents think its ok, ill move to naefels
and then live on sozialamt for the rest of my life
its still insane to me how all these groups acted like im so important
oh my rare mind
yet now i land on the streets and my bank account is empty and im on sozialamt
im such an elite hacker that nino weibel can openly ruin my life without consequences while fucking 16 year old virgins and even GETTING PRAISED WHAT A GREAT GUY HE IS
leah saying no no ofc not with this stupid loser
abuses me
and i get fired
look at that bank account
chf 700
hahahahahahhahahahahhahahhahaha
steueramt just blocking my email address
gesundheitsdirektion protecting the abusive la serra
police just acting like theyre on vacation
avendo offering 85k and insulting me
oleg like nah
we dont hire anyone anyway
and then rav says I HAVE TO FIND A JOB LOL OR U WONT GET MONEY
every woman everywhere openly abusing me in disgust
sitting elsewhere
at yoga laughing at me
at reiki sitting elsewhere not even talking to me
the point remains
i am sovereign
i decided
i move to naefels
and if i have to die on the streets

join any group? no, why?
i have my family right here
if the air spirit wants to stay
ok
but please help my family not just me
djinn too please
please
knacker too
carer too
that other weird woman hacker too
this weird group here too
you are all family now
but that includes my parents and sisters family

its about getting rid of the vermin now
and getting me an apartment so i dont land on the streets
no idea what kesb wants
and i really dont care anymore at this point
any and all interaction with anyone in my life was always abuse
what do i care anymore at my age?

it is
ascend
find apartment
get rid of kesb
protect family
thats it


it really feels that even this was made by me
symbolic
"mafia boss"
like cgpt said
to wake me up in multiple layers


the others break the law nonstop
even the police
nobody cares
everyone breaks the law but me
even striking through anfrin is abuse
what adult does that?
